Wash It All Away

While the wind whipped my hair,
As the first drops began to trickle,
Until the drumming beat fills my head,
When with the ground it mingles,
I find myself staring out the window wishing you were here.

When the feeling becomes to hard to bear,
As the temptation within grows bold,
Until the urge is to strong to hold,
That it makes my whole essence whirl and,
I jump out into the rain savouring the chilly moisture as it touches my skin.

As if every cell in my body had come alive,
That they danced with the same electrical intensity,
As the lightning that surged through the sky but,
Although I know I am smiling,
I can feel my tears falling, veiled with the rain.

-- Contributed by Zarah Elizabeth Arcega, written September 20, 2009

Set Me Free

Saw these lyrics on a friend's page...

Love makes you feel bad
Makes you so sad
But that's the way it goes
Hate makes you feel good
Like only pain could
But that's the way it goes

I won't feel that, and I
I won't feel bad, and I
I won't miss you when you're gone

Don't tell me you love me
Now that you need me
Don't tell me you want me
Just let me go
Won't you set me free?

-- From the song "Set Me Free" by Marion Raven

Remnants

No sun shines through my windows, there is only the melancholy of rain outside.
All I've ever known of loving and being in-love is really just sorrow and pain.
And what remains now are only the scattered pieces of a heart that once was.
Maybe this is how it's meant to be, that my broken heart shall no longer mend.

-- Gio Arcega, Cardiac Syncytium, Re-posted from September 12, 2007

Accidents Happen

We all know that sleep deprivation (i.e., watching the entire 3rd season of Grey's Anatomy for 2 straight nights) lessens the alertness and "quick response" ability of the human body. Well, this morning I finished washing 2 dishes and 2 rounded (and expensive) drinking glasses. En route to the dish rack, one of the glasses swayed and fell off. Quickly, I tried to catch it with my left hand before it reached the ground, but then of course, I wasn't quick enough, and ended up also dropping everything I was holding in my right hand. (Ouch!). All this happened in about 2 to 3 seconds. Next thing I knew, I was clutching shards of glass with my left hand. (Ouch again!). I got eight cuts and punctures in all, one of which was deep enough to cut through the digital arteries of the middle finger. I was bleeding, but I knew it wasn't really anything to worry about. As I tried to stop the bleeding, I could feel the wound pulsing, with every beat of my heart. And then I imagined how scary it must feel if one had a serious wound (say, a gunshot or stab wound), and you could feel that you were losing something (not just blood, but also your life) along with every beating of your heart. Anyway, I'm fine. And the lessons I learned are: (1) Life's like that, sometimes when we hold on to one thing, we end up losing everything; and, (2) If you have open wounds, with every beating of the heart you could be losing something.

-- Gio Arcega, Cardiac Syncytium, Re-posted from September 02, 2007

Chances Are

Some of us will find the right love sooner than others; some of us will take longer than others.
And still, some of us will spend a lifetime searching for a love that we would never ever find.
After all the heartaches and pain, we always wonder if we would ever find the right one for us.
We can only hope, and take our chances again and again, for love is really about taking chances.

-- Gio Arcega, Cardiac Syncytium, Re-posted from August 31, 2007

Tears in the Rain

When I am awake, I think of you; even as I sleep, I dream of you – such madness of the heart!
But never must you see me like this – never must you know how you affect me, how you change me.
Your knowing how I feel will mean you only pain and sorrow; and I don't ever want to hurt you.
Like tears falling in the rain, you will never know... that I ever fell in love with you.

-- Gio Arcega, Cardiac Syncytium, Re-posted from August 29, 2007

Falling Sand

Just as love can be found, love can also be lost...
Like fine grains of sand falling from one's grasp.
Leaving us wounded and lost in a sea of despair.
And fear overcomes us, should love ever come again.

-- Gio Arcega, Cardiac Syncytium, Re-posted from August 23, 2007

Angel Without Wings

I now know heaven exists, for I can see it through your eyes.
With every breath that I take, I whisper your sweet name - the song of my soul.
You touch my heart and you move me, in ways no words could ever explain.
Because of you, my life will never ever be the same again...

-- Gio Arcega, Cardiac Syncytium, Re-posted from August 21, 2007

Light and Shadow

Always here we are, together and yet apart.
Like a curse, how loneliness binds our fate, as we are meant and also not meant to be.
I feel the radiance in your smile, and I yearn for your warm embrace.
But touch me and I will fade; for you are light, and I am shadow.

-- Gio Arcega, Cardiac Syncytium, Re-posted from August 17, 2007

Lost in You

Words are hard to find, there is just no sense of logic nor reason.
I twist and turn in a bed of endless contradictions, absolute perplexity.
Struggling to find order in chaos, the meanings in the dreams.
And now the road forks ahead, which path to take, I do not know...

-- Gio Arcega, Cardiac Syncytium, Re-posted from August 15, 2007